I'm back too!

So, here's the scoop: February has not been a good month for me. I've been very overwhelmed with work and school and home stuff. It's been a challenge to find time to do homework and study around my work schedule. I've fallen behind in both classes and now I'm trying to catch up. I also had to finish my application for my bachelor's program, which was a whole packet of stuff that took quite awhile to put together. But I have managed to keep my head above water so far, and I've slowly been reading the Spark book. :) The bad part is working out and eating right were not a priority. That needs to change.

The few pounds I lost, I put back on within a couple of weeks of eating fast food (a waste of money and calories!) a couple days a week. And most embarrassingly, my other half has pointed out a couple more things in the past couple of weeks that have totally mortified me. First, I was getting ready for work one morning with only a bra on while doing makeup. He walks by and goes "Whoa, what's THAT?!" (yeah, he's not the most tactful man alive)..then points out a "new roll" along my mid back. THEN..about a week later, after a visit to the massage therapist, tells me about the body wraps they have that would help get rid of my cellulite. Sigh. Now, before you get mad at him and think bad of him... From the beginning, we've had the agreement to bring things like this to the other's attention. (And just to be fair, I have brought his "sagging buns" to his attention. hee hee) That doesn't make it any less humiliating though. The worst part is, he knows that I try to find time to work out, but just never seem to find it on a regular basis. He really appreciates me working the new job and realizes that I'm doing my best, ...but still...

I WANT to feel good about how I look again. I want to love my curves again. I want to be able to shop for clothes without crying. I want to be able to walk without feeling everything from my ribs to my knees jiggle. I want to climb the stairs at school without being out of breath. I want to run a 5K. I want to finish a marathon!

I'm starting fresh (again). NEW WEEK - NEW MONTH! woo hoo! I printed off the shopping list and meal plan. And I made a new resolution: NO fast food until RFTC. It's only 70 days away, I just need to plan ahead and pack food for the day. :)

I also need some fitness goals, so stay tuned for those.

Tonight, I just wanted to check in and see what I've missed. I'm glad I did because Dorothy has been fired up and focused and doing a great job posting. Let's hear it for Dorothy! (applause) Thanks for the inspiration, you're the best. I could never do this without you. xo 'thank you for being a friend'...and my sister. I love you.